With two gorgeous sons and a loving partner, Terri should be happy. But she is haunted by the fact her first child was adopted…
When Terri was 15 she accidentally got pregnant and gave birth to a baby boy, whom she called Nicholas. She adored Nicholas, but as she was no longer with his dad and her parents were in the middle of a divorce – and she had also gone back to college – she found it exhausting. When Nicholas was three months old it was suggested she contact social services for some support and respite and they offered to have Nicholas cared for one weekend so she could catch up on some sleep.
It seemed a good idea. But when Terri went back on the Monday to pick Nicholas up she was told the social worker involved wasn’t there and to come back. It was to be the beginning of a nightmare. Social services then said they wanted to look into whether she could cope with her baby. And against her will, and despite getting a lawyer to try to keep Nicholas, to her horror Social services then decided he would be best off with a family.
When he was fifteen months old months old he ended up being adopted. The last time she saw Nicholas he clung to her legs crying to her. It was heartbreaking and she has never got over it.
Terri was incredibly depressed but she moved area and has since gone on to have two more children with a different partner, 26, who works in computers. She is now aged 26 and has two sons aged 4 and 1. Because her first child was adopted, she was visited by social services in the new area – they cannot understand why her baby was adopted. She has since seen her records and it says she gave Nicholas up willingly. This has shocked her – it is not how it was and she worries that when he is 18 and sees these records he will believe she didn’t want him.
She thinks about Nicholas all the time, she feels always she is a mum of three but is unable to tell people that. The only good thing is she knows Nicholas did go to a good home and consoles herself that he will be well loved. His adoptive parents regularly send her updates in letter and she knows Nicholas is happy.
But she just wishes she was there to cuddle him, see him home from school. It is an ache in her heart that simply won’t go away.
Terri says: “If Nicholas does trace me when he’s 18 I will be able to show him this feature and he will then know how much I loved him.”
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